Monday, April 28, 2014

STUCK and hoping my way out of it

Stuck…have you ever just felt stuck? Stuck in a situation that you hold little control over? Presently that’s where I stand. Going on our third week in the hospital little Penelope has only spent half a day of her life outside these walls, you can maybe see why I feel stuck. Ultimately I know God holds the key to being unstuck but I can’t seem to figure out what to do in the mean time. I've felt so supported by friends and family in this time, but I also feel a little bit in survival just don't cry for two more days and by then we'll be home and we can breathe a sigh of relief. Except, there isn't a near end in sight, we're still going through lots of tests and scans to figure this whole thing out. So in my “stuck” I’m just waiting…not sure that’s the best choice but honestly I feel like that’s all I can handle right now. I wait and I trust that He will make me strong and restore me along the way.

I haven’t been clinging to much scripture in all this mess but just this morning Isaiah 40:31 popped into my head, "but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will rise up on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint". After writing half of this post a friend brought me the most delicious lunch along with some prayer and scripture for me and Nelly and guess what verse she felt God say was for me.... you guessed it Isaiah 40:31. Don't you just love when God does stuff like that? HE HEARS US... and then just in case we forget he sends friends to remind us that HE HEARS US.

So dwelling on this verse I can say- Surely my hope is in the Lord and not man, but I feel led to pray specifically for the renewed strength… the strength to run and not grow weary, to walk and not faint. Frankly right now I'm sort of laughing at God thinking, you better bring it because you know it's not coming from me, my strength is about gone and I am entering into that, "I'm so tired, look at how bad we've got it... why haven't you healed her yet" state of mind.

  And then when I'm done crying I let down my pride and I just ask: Lord would you bring renewal my way? Even though I feel stuck and don’t know the way out of this mess, I know who you are and I know your word. I put all my hope in you, I trust you God! I trust that you will not give me more than I can handle, and I trust your timing and purpose in it all… So I’m hoping in Him and asking for renewal and on days like this when I feel that’s all I can manage, maybe that’s all He expects from us.

 Thinking maybe I'm not the only who needs a little encouragement today I made a #scripturedoodle of this verse and you can download a free printable version here

Thanks again to everyone for your prayers and support 

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