Saturday, June 4, 2011

Today

Have you ever known that you were supposed to do something? And then before you know it time is passing and everything else is getting in the way of you doing what you know you are meant to do? You find yourself doing all things EXCEPT what you're supposed to be doing.

That is where I am right now.....I know I am called to be an artist and create. I know that I am called to share creative things with others and awaken that desire to create in their hearts. But I am failing miserably at my calling in this present moment.  It has been too long since I have made anything worth talking about. So why does this happen? I wish I had a brilliant answer, but for me it's a few things. First: we are about to move into our first home next week, so my surroundings presently are far from  creative. exhibit A:

Second: I have recently begun working part time for my church in admin....what? why would I ever do that, I don't know, but I am. So that is filling half of my week. And Third: I honestly believe I am the biggest excuse maker that The Lord ever loved.

I went for a walk this morning to clear my head, waiting for a revelation.....still waiting. I can only rest in the promise that the Lord's mercies are new every morning. While reading this a.m. I came across a favorite verse: Psalm 118:24

  While I wait on revelation I will rejoice in this new day. Regardless of my failings God has made this day and I am still here on Earth so I will rejoice!

I am not really great at making commitments....I am committed to God and, I am committed to Robert. I am sure I will stand on those, but when it comes to resolutions or turning a new leaf, I almost always fail. So I'm not going to make a commitment to create every day, but I WILL create today! I will take it one day at a time, knowing that I will fail some days. But I will rest in the fact that it does not change the Father's love for me.
"For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,  Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39

Thank you God!

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